A year ago, I wrote my intro. It was July 26, the day after OWOA’s birthday. July 26 is my birthday. It’s still July 26 in mountain or pacific time… so I’ll just sing myself happy birthday again (Happy birthday to me, happy birthday to me, happy birthday to MEEEEEE, happy birthday to me - okay, that is a bit ridiculous, but hey, it’s 12:10 a.m. central time and I have had a long happy day.)
I had a hard time writing a goal yesterday. What is my big goal for next year this time? I ultimately decided it would be to get to 160.
I found that I was having a hard time making a big goal because I didn’t make my goal for this past year. I wanted to lose more weight in this past year. I wanted to be a success story! I want to take “after” pictures.
But at about 248 - I’ve lost 16 lbs. There isn’t much difference between “then” and “now” yet. I’m not getting spunked all that much. I have days where I wonder if I should just give up and accept where I am as the way I’ll be.
But something inside me says NO! NO NO NO NO. It doesn’t have to be this way. I know plenty of people who have made it to the other side. And I can keep running the race too.
I have lost 16 lbs. I have a lot more to go. But even if I only lost 10 lbs a year, it is still a loss. And I do not accept that this is the best that I can do.
With God’s help, I can do anything. Even conquer the laziness and lack of discipline, and even get through the hard times when they come - and lose more weight. And no matter what else - I lost weight this year. LOST. Not gained. LOST.
And that feels good.
Happy birthday to me. And thanks to OWOA for one of the best birthday gifts ever.
Tracy, that was so moving! Yes, 16 pounds is a LOSS…a significant loss! Just take baby steps. One day/meal/hour at a time. I am proud of you and glad to be a part of this site with you. Happy birthday!!!
Comment by Brandi — July 27, 2007 @ 6:01 am
Happy Birthday Tracy, thank you for your inspiring post. I too have struggled with not losing as much as I have wanted but you have to look at every pound lost as one that is never going back on and then just keep moving forward. Have a blessed day.
Comment by Kellie — July 27, 2007 @ 6:15 am
A friend from work lost about 35 pounds (which got her to her “normal” weight) … but she did it in FOUR years! She just wasn’t in a hurry. Like Brandi said, 16 pounds is a loss and a really good one at that. Just think, previously you might have been 16 pounds heavier after a year!
Comment by Bird — July 27, 2007 @ 5:19 pm
Sorry Tracey its a bit late but glad you had a happy day and happy returns. Well done for hanging in there. Yes 16 lbs lost is worth celebrating. You can do it girl so please don’t give up. You have lots of mates on this site and I don’t think Blest is about to give us up even though she has made her goal. After all its not just about losing but keeping it off too. Go for that goal and we’ll celebrate with you when you make it adn the in between steps to boot.
Comment by elly — July 29, 2007 @ 10:22 am
and I don’t think Blest is about to give us up even though she has made her goal
Are you kidding me?!!! Of course I’m not!
You guys are family now!
A late Happy Birthday Tracy! And I am so proud of you! You are still here! You’ve lost weight and you haven’t quit - in the face of a tough year!!! You go, girl! You WILL get there - and what a celebration we’ll have when you do!
Comment by blestwithsons — July 30, 2007 @ 6:46 am
well, I’m glad that Blest will stick with us!
And I’m out to lose more than 16 lbs this year - though even another 16 would be 32
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One Weigh or Another, I’m going to get there!
Comment by Tracy — August 1, 2007 @ 7:17 am