I’m not weighing this morning. My plan was to “officially” weigh tomorrow (Tuesday) so I could tally my 12 week results. I don’t deserve a gain this week - at all, but it appears that’s the way the scale will likely go in the morning anyway. I know this shouldn’t upset me as much as it is. I know it’s just a number but the old eating disorder is rearing it’s ugly head today. Part of me is screaming “just don’t eat” and part of me is screaming “just eat everything, what’s the point.” Obviously neither voice is right. I did eat breakfast this morning (eggs and fruit) and I’m counting that a victory with the way I’m feeling right now. I keep trying to tell myself it’s “just that time of the month” but that isn’t bringing much comfort. I don’t deserve to put on any weight this week. I’ve done well with my eating, water and exercise. I really believed this week was going to rock.
I just need prayer that I’ll keep perspective and keep doing what is healthy despite a disappointing weigh in tomorrow. I did get a minimum of 5 servings of fruit/veggies a day for at least 6 days (didn’t track yesterday but I think it was probably close to five). So I completed this week’s challenge.
We woke at 5am thinking the condo was on fire - we still aren’t sure where the “burning smell” was coming from. I may not be online for the rest of the day. I am in the middle of a freezer cooking session, lessons and this condo looks like a tornado hit it. My world definitely feels less than ordered at the moment. Also, we’ve had two recent deaths in the family and my grandfather was in the hospital with chest pain - so, if you could remember them in prayer also I would greatly appreciate it.
Love you Blair!! Hang in there, honey!!
Comment by blestwithsons — March 26, 2007 @ 6:33 am
Blair–just take things one minute at a time. I think you are wise ignoring the scale. Just focus on obedient eating and trusting the Lord with all of your emotions and fears. I will pray for you…I pray you will know His delight is in you and everything else will just be silenced in your mind. You are doing a great job!
Comment by Brandi — March 26, 2007 @ 6:41 am
I know it’s tough not to be discouraged when you’re doing everything right and there’s still a gain, but keep going. We’re here for you!
Comment by Jana — March 26, 2007 @ 6:42 am
We’re praying for you Blair.
Comment by Bekki — March 26, 2007 @ 6:48 am
“Heavenly Father, I lift up my sister Blair to you and ask that You hold her tightly in Your hand as she struggles this morning. Fill her with your love, comfort, and peace”
Comment by Kellie — March 26, 2007 @ 7:50 am
Don’t be discouraged, you’re doing great! You’ve come a long ways! Tomorrow is a new day and who knows, maybe the scale will surprise you.
I pray that the Lord puts his hands on you and that you feel his strength and love.
(((HUGS)))
Comment by Cristina — March 26, 2007 @ 8:06 am
Blair, I’ll be praying for you!!
Comment by Bethany — March 26, 2007 @ 7:06 pm
How are you doing Blair? I haven’t seen you around recently. Been missing you!
Comment by Bethany — April 3, 2007 @ 8:37 am