No sense in beating around the bush. Facts is facts. I blew it today. I know why. It’s because of tomorrow. Now I know my son has a problem (pdd of some sort), but to actually sit there and have a developemental pediatrition tell me he has a problem is a whole ‘nother story. I want my Hubby to intuitively know what I’m feeling and struggling with right now, but he is very stressed and very tired right now. I want to call my mom and just bawl, but I don’t want to worry her (I did call her and she gets teary just thinking about the appointment.). So I turned to food. I also know I probably won’t sleep well tonight, so I am avoiding going to bed as well.
How can such little critters get under our skin? Maybe because they are so cute. I am trying to leave this with the Lord and let Him carry this burden, but it is so hard because he is my baby boy. The one I sing “I’ll Love You Forever” to. The one I ask “who do I love?” to, and he vigorously points to his chest. The one who I caught on camera singing “All Creatures of Our God and King” in such a sweet, soft little voice. I want to be Hannah. But it is so hard.
Tuesday 22 August 2006
I Blew It (Leigh Ann)
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I’m praying for you right now!
Comment by Carrie — August 22, 2006 @ 10:11 pm
I hear you. next time come talk to us - or e-mail me. I’m currently working on getting early intervention for our youngest, and there are days where I feel like falling apart - because I’m tired about talking about what he can’t do.
It’s so easy to tell someone else what we should do in any situation, of course. I tell myself when I’m not upset - next time, I will remember to go to my knees instead of falling to the ground upset. Next time, I will pray instead of eating. Next time. It’s easy to tell someone else, isn’t it, even easy to tell myself when I’m doing okay.
I’m going to try to remember this tomorrow. The SLP is coming to do the speech eval on my little guy on Thursday!
Comment by Tracy — August 22, 2006 @ 10:55 pm
I’m praying God will give you the grace and courage needed in each moment.
Comment by Anita — August 22, 2006 @ 10:55 pm
LeighAnn, sweetie, it’s gonna be okay. He’s a bright, beautiful boy. And he will be the same boy after the appointment as he was before the appointment. But hopefully you will come out better equipped to help him. That’s all this is about - information acquisition. Look there might be some delays - but they can and will be overcome. Hang in there!
Comment by blestwithsons — August 22, 2006 @ 11:07 pm
LeighAnn,
Remember, you are walking out with the same sweet little boy that you are walking in with! He is still gonna love you like he already does and he’ll still point to his chest when you ask who do I love. I’m praying for you and for peace.
Comment by mammasquiettime — August 23, 2006 @ 7:39 am
I understand completely. My 11 Yo is ADHD, diagnosed at the age of 4. We knew it for a few years before. I was ADHD before it was called ADHD. My little brother is ADHD. My son is sooo much like my brother. But when the Psychologist told me she thought he was one fo the cearest cases of ADHD she had ever seen (and she claimed to be conservative about diagnosing it), I wanted to know what specific behaviors made her say that. Was she sure… Today I am axious because it is the first day of school and he is trying a new med protocol today.
Comment by Maggie — August 23, 2006 @ 8:43 am
I’m praying for you. Remember he loves you no matter what just like you love him.
Comment by Andrea — August 23, 2006 @ 8:43 am
((HUGS)) Praying for you girl. Our family has faced similar issues and I know it isn’t easy.
Comment by Blair — August 23, 2006 @ 9:10 am
(((Leigh Ann))) We are here for you. Praying for you and your little guy.
Comment by stephanie — August 23, 2006 @ 9:33 am