Okay. So. I made it through the Cracker Barrel Chicken Fried Steak (with gravy) craving and ate a nice, healthy dinner at home with my boy. Yay, you say. Oh, no. Not yay. That craving didn’t really go away, it just cloaked itself in the form of an ice cream craving, of the Baskin-Robbins sort.
I tried to distract myself through various means which usually works. But this time, it didn’t. The craving only grew stronger. And instead of thinking it through and praying for strength and wisdom, I indulged some very ugly hormonal thoughts about being fat, having bad hair, crooked teeth, getting wrinkles, and assorted other “unattractive” ideas about myself. What does this woman do in such a state? Why, she eats, of course.
In an attempt to hide what I was about to do, I told my son we were going to the library to pick up his holds. Uh, yeah. Being that I was too ugly for public viewing, I stayed in the car while he ran in, pondering what flavor I would be eating on the way home. Something happened while I was waiting for Nick; the Voice of reason broke through. I thought about ya’ll and particularly Blair and her daily quizes. The thought of having to admit that I had eaten Pistachio Almond ice cream, not because it was a special occassion, or as part of a planned treat with my son, but because I wanted to medicate myself with food, stopped me cold.
Since we got home (sans ice cream), I have been thinking about it and I am surprised at the whole thing. I didn’t realize that I was such an emotional eater. I have also been thinking about how thankful I am for this group of ladies. Being accountable to you all made a big difference for me today and I am so grateful.
You are fantabulous!
(Now you can Yay.)
Go, Laura - way to stand firm! And you are a beautiful lady - your blog has been such an encouragement in my life. Don’t listen to the lies of the enemy that would tell you otherwise.
Comment by Carrie — August 8, 2006 @ 10:17 pm
YAYAYAYAY!!! No go do some car dancing in the Target parking lot to celebrate…no wait.
That’s awesome! Praise God! and yay you!
Comment by blestwithsons — August 8, 2006 @ 10:46 pm
Way to go, Laura!!! I am so proud of you and your great choices!!!!! I am so glad you are here with us as part of this team. You have really encouraged me today with this story… (((HUG)))
Comment by Leann — August 8, 2006 @ 11:36 pm
Woohoo! That’s a big hurdle to overcome ~ realizing that it is a problem at times. And great job for using your support group as rationalization for NOT giving in!
Comment by Lorri — August 9, 2006 @ 9:39 am
You girls are AWESOME. Praising God you all!
Comment by lady laura — August 9, 2006 @ 10:26 am
YAY Lady L!
This story was such an encouragement. Good job for beating the temptation and remaining sane to think through the craving attack!
Comment by Kat — August 9, 2006 @ 10:42 am