Howdy! My name is Missy, and I am cold! My husband got a fantastic career opportunity last summer. So we packed up our bags and moved from my birthplace – Fort Worth, Texas – all the way to New Hampshire. It seemed such an incredible blessing in August; not so much now! Actually, it is beautiful here, and the folks are so nice.
I started blog-lurking in July of 2006 at NITU after my husband met the author, Jeff, on a business trip up here. I thought I could get some insight on where I was going. Shortly thereafter, I began spying on those in his blogroll, if I liked their comments. Needless to say, I found myself following Blest over here. So I have been lurking here almost since inception.
I am not a risk taker, extremely lazy and find great joy in comfort and relaxation. I was not always this way. From a very early age, I was always athletic and LOVED team sports of any kind. I liked being part of a team. I was always good enough to make the top teams, but never good enough to be a starter – I loved the bench, though. My favorite thing about sports was the encouragement I could give and receive with my team mates. So that is what eventually drew me into OWOA enough to begin “speaking.”
How I put on the weight: putting down my guard after engagement, getting a cushy office job and not playing any sports, getting pregnant in the first year of marriage, 3 C-sections in 4 years, taking care of toddlers (cooking only what they liked) and feeling guilty for taking time for me.
Why I could not lose the weight: I really did not want to because of fear. My biggest fear is dealing with compliments or attention from men. I did not handle it well when younger, and for some reason I have it in my mind that it could lead to an affair?? Don’t ask me, it just is what it is.
I have made progressive changes in the past few years, first stopping the gain – then very slowly losing about 25 pounds. I am actively tackling the fear issues now, so I am hoping that is the key.
Why I want to change now: I had settled for “better” and it just wasn’t good enough. I have had a lot of health problems related to weight (although docs just won’t tell you that will they?) and have some unique restrictions on what I eat because of those problems. But mostly, I just miss playing.
I am so excited to be a part of a team again! Anyone up for some volleyball?
Hello Missy. Welcome to the team.
Comment by Bekki — March 16, 2007 @ 2:50 am
Oh Missy! I’m soooo up for some volleyball! One of my favorites!
Welcome!
Comment by Bethany — March 16, 2007 @ 4:41 am
I love volleyball!!! I’m in TN…suppose after we get the weight off we could meet somewhere in the middle?!
Welcome to the team
Comment by Tami — March 16, 2007 @ 5:16 am
Welcome Missy! I do understand “fear of losing weight” - mine is different than yours…slightly. I’m not affraid it will lead to an affair but definitely afraid of other stuff (long and rather stomach churning story). I’m also facing my fears and working with God to break the hideous fear cycle.
((hugs))
Comment by Blair — March 16, 2007 @ 5:51 am
Welcome, Missy!
I also have some lingering fears about losing weight but, praise the Lord, less that I used to have. Isn’t it interesting how much we can learn about ourselves during this process?
Comment by lady laura — March 16, 2007 @ 6:45 am
Missy–
I enjoyed reading your story! I find it so interesting all of the fears people can have about losing weight. I am happy for you; it is obvious you are well on your way to total freedom. This is a great site!
Comment by Brandi — March 16, 2007 @ 6:49 am
Hi Missy! It’s great to meet you.
Yep, I guess we’re the “freshman”. I wish you the best of luck too. Seems like we’ve got a great support system here.
Comment by Cristina — March 16, 2007 @ 7:17 am
I love volleyball too! Maybe when we have our big OWOA weekend we can have a game!!
Comment by blestwithsons — March 16, 2007 @ 7:39 am