I have been beating myself up for many of the same reasons you guys are. I am slow, I am not losing quickly, I am not disciplined, etc… I just thought I would let CJ know that I am also STEALING that quote to blog about on my blog. 
I have come to the conclusion that it is a daily decision. I have no idea what I will do tomorrow but today I will get out of bed early to go for a walk. Today I will sit and read my Bible. Today I will eat good food… sometimes that is on a meal by meal basis that I have to say that out loud to myself. I think that is how God calls us to live. I am not sure how spiritual any of you are - that is personal between you and God but I do feel that scripture teaches us that we must rely upon Him for EVERYTHING. We don’t need to look six months down the path we merely need to do today what is the most valuable for today. That includes NOT looking back at yesterday and beating ourselves up. What is gone is GONE! God wants everything in our lives. He wants our struggles as mommies. He wants our struggles in marriages and relationships. He wants our struggles with weightloss. He wants our struggles at work. He wants our struggles with discipline - with EVERYTHING.
So, I have made up my mind that each day when I get out of bed tired and sore and maybe not feeling like I WANT to walk, I will decide to give it to Him. I use that time to pray over my day. I use that time to think on the things that are troubling me and filling up my day and then I take it to the throne. It works for me. It helps me to keep all of this in perspective. It helps me to not let the food and the weight control my every thought. I don’t want to make weightloss and the way I look become a god but I do want to be a good steward of what God has given me.
Henry Blackaby said, and I am paraphrasing here… that we should pray for eyes to see God’s perspective. What does God deem important? The priority in my journey of getting in shape and losing weight to be healthy is a part of a bigger goal. I do want to look good for my husband and I have teased about that on occasion - and it is important to respect your husband in that way but the bigger picture is that I want to glorify God. When people look at my life I don’t want to give them room for judging me in that I am controlled by something like food or emotions that I cannot control or addictions. Those things are not from God. I want them gone as a testament to the power of God in my life - that He did it. He took away things that were controlling me and set me free.
Am I “all that and a bag of chips”? No, but I am a child of God. In being a child of His I have a power that is LIMITLESS. So, my point here is that it is a “one day at a time” thing and only God can free us from what so easily besets us. It has helped me not to beat myself up anymore and to be joyful even in the weeks when I don’t do so hot. I may get a bit down but there is a true God that picks me up (and can pick you up too), dust you off and say, “Ok, let’s try this again my child. I am here to hold you up, kiss the bruises, heal the wounds and love you.” Let’s let Him love us this week….
:) (((HUGS TO ALL)))
there’s so much good stuff on here today!! thanks, ladies, for sharing. i needed to hear all of it
Comment by Anne — May 19, 2007 @ 1:03 pm
Leann..thank you for sharing your heart and your struggles. We are so amazingly blessed to have a heavenly Father who loves us and wants victory in our lives. So for today I WILL choose to honor him in all my choices…including food.You are an inspiration!
Comment by Kellie — May 21, 2007 @ 9:47 am
Thank you so much for your post Leann. You said this perfectly!
Comment by Cristina — May 21, 2007 @ 12:11 pm